too long

yes yes, its been a while again since i have written down anything here.
Probably coz my mind, my life, has been a whirlwind since i was on my way home from gimmick with the sakote people on Nov 27.

On my way home, I was driving along, when something hit the back windshield of my car. Within seconds, the whole windshield was cracking. I was a bit shocked. I didnt bother to stop the car and check what or who caused the windshield to crack. at the back of my mind, it might be those groups who trick people, rape you, steal your car and leave you to die somewhere.

I went straight home. Couldnt sleep. Im glad my schiatzi ran to me and was there for me to comfort me.
It took a week until i finally got to bring the car into the casa to be fixed coz i had to wait for all the paperwork to be done. (considering holidays, police report, insurance, no plates yet,etc)

Slowly, i was starting to breathe normally again.
Slowly, life was starting to go back on track.

Finally, just last saturday, just a few hours before my mom arrived, we got the car back. All fixed.

Hay. Sometimes i wonder. Is it soo bad to be extremely happy for a whole day?
People say that if you're sooo happy, you have to pinch yourself to remind you that not everything is perfect.
I should remember pinching myself when im overly happy for more than 2 hours.
=========================================================

how i wish the earth would swallow me up.
how i wish i could just disappear so that no one will ever worry about me again, and i wont have to give them headaches.
i thought i cried all my tears out, but till now, why are they still streaming down my face?
I feel so distraught.
ayoko na mangdamay.
ayoko na masaktan ko yung mga mahal ko sa buhay.
ayoko na.
God please just take me.

thanksgiving

Yup, its thanksgiving.
But i only have a ballpark idea on what its all about coz we dont celebrate it.
All i know is that its the time that we gather, give thanks about the past year, and eat turkey.
The impact of thanksgiving to americans (holiday wise) is like xmas to us Filipinos, idul fitri to muslims and diwali to indians.

If I were to ask what i am thankful for, it would be that i am thankful i am blessed with a wonderful family, a loving schiatzi, wonderful friends and a job to help support my family.

I am also ever so thankful that im still here standing.
==========================================================

So happy!
Got an award today at the office.
My efforts and hard work are finally noticed.
Plus, sweldo pa today, and 13th month pay.
happy happy joy joy!
I can finally get the K700i!
whoooeeeee!
==========================================================

ho hum

So many people are joining na!
Esp at http://bashingday.blogspot.com
Welcome welcome!
Finally a portal where we can all rant about our "beloved".

********************************************************************************

So sad.
News was broken to the newbies that four had to crosstrain to other teams.
So sad that it had to be the ones that I am beginning to be close with.
Harp, Ella, Cj and Gboi.
My heart goes out to the four of you.
Dont fret, you're in good hands.
You guys were chosen coz you guys are the cream of the crop.
At least we're still in the same profit center (NBLC LBG)
We're still in the same family.
We're always here for you guys.

************************************************************************************

girlalus! (kris and kaye)
syempre allan and i are on a limb about the new category of the secret santas.
Esp Allan. I mean, how will he KNOW what to give___? Gets nyo?

anak ng tokwa!
na multiple agent number pa ako! additional appointment pa! 50 numbers! whhhhhaaaaaaaaapak!

.oi.

how lousy this day can it get?
i didnt have enough time to eat dinner,
the temp here in the office is freezing my cute patootie off.
My brain cells are not functioning properly....its on LAG mode.
The files im getting are whacked out and
Therefore my production is really low.

To top it all off,
someone is trying to be funny when he's not.
GRRRR!

MONDAY BLUES!!

ripple

blogs can be really astig... esp with those comments.
They make u want to write more coz you have people sharing your sentiments.

My girls kaye and kris got me into this
i got some people to read my blog and they got their own accounts too
for sure, more people will get influenced and so on....

Ripple effect.
pretty awesome!
==============================================

honestly, its only recently that i really got active in this blog.
All because of no work. I finally have enough time to put into writing (or typing) my thoughts.

==============================================

I just read Harp's blog.
so much anger there!....... but i guess we all have anger when it comes to THAT.

maj

Bwisit!
wala bang isang araw na hindi mo kami tatantanan sa panunuri mo sa sobrang liit na mga bagay?
Langya!
Sana yung mga butas na hinahanap mo ay mas malaki!
bwiset ka talaga sa mga buhay namin!
GRRRRRR!!!!
nakakagigil sa inis!!

they better get things ryt next time!

Southborder sang Itsumo???!!!
Hell no!!
but I was surfing for some South border lyrics and this came out:


Itsumo
by South Border

Album
:

Juz' call me first born, you're my first love,
You're my 1st kiss from up above.
And I don't care if you don't give love back
Coz' n my heart is where your ass is at.
I love your eyes , your nose & your tender lips,
Wanna kiss your neck, your shoulders to your finger tips.
I go crazy when you shake those sexy hips.
Baby girl you're the 1 I can't resist.
You know I love you from the very start,
I don't care if you break my heart.
I'm the man & I'm here for you, believe me coz' my love is true.

[CHORUS][Sashi]
Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara

[K9]You wanna get down with k-n-i-n-e,
make sure that's pure l-o-v-e
Never talk about the i-c-e coz'
I only got my h-e-a-r-t for y-o-u
I can't pay the bills for dinner,
I juz' give them my IOU
For sure, I'm not after f-u-c-k,
got no b-a-d intentions don't wanna play girl,
Maybe we might spot a UFO, wait, that's not part of the rhyme juz' felt like sayin' so
You gotta know that I love from the start till f-o-r-e-v-e-r.

[CHORUS][Sashi]
Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara

[Dice]Baby girl be my first lady,
be the mom of my first baby
You didn't like me when you first show me,
I'll be gentle I'll do it slowly.

[K9]Girl, I think it's better if you was with me,
I got doe coz' I juz' won the spelling bee
For you, I got all the t-i-m-e
Ask mommies to pass but
I'm not so sure Juz' doin' my on thing,
shits more expensive than your fancy gold rings,
I don't mean dissin' coz' I gots to go there, mommies don't care,
All for them ladies, even chicks with nose rings.

[CHORUS][Sashi]Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara

[CHORUS][Sashi]Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara



*************************************
Like I said, They better get things right next time.
What a disgrace for South Border!

training

So, nagsarili ka na.
Feeling mo ba naiintindihan ka ng mga tinuturuan mo?
So, nagmamarunong ka nanaman.
hay nako!
Ang init talaga ng dugo namin sayo.
Pasalamat ka malakas sa sa mga Authorities, kc kung hindi, matagal ka nang bagsak!
Bwiset!

*****************************************************

inggit....

Jealous me!!!!

Miss ko na Sakote!!!

GRRR night jobs!!!!

wahhh!!!!

...hay....

SUCKS

TO

BE

MEE!!!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!


*********************************************************************
Kris.....teka teka.... confused na ako ha!
gets mo ko?
Gotta talk na talaga!!
Lets meet up next week girls!!!
PLS PLS PLS?????
I dont have work on the 25th till the 28th!

partners

I spent my whole day with my schatzi.
We ate lunch, watched a movie, strolled around malls to window shop, talked about stuff, hugged each other, then brought me to work.
We feel recharged.

Although the weekend was a rollercoaster of petty fights, misunderstandings, sickness and make ups, it all boils down to this.

There's nothing like taking refuge in the comfort of being physically present when you are in need of that certain love and comfort that only your partner can give.

I guess thats what happened today.

I didnt care that I didnt get sleep the whole day today just so I can be there for him and him for me.

He didnt care that he wasn't feeling well and that his ass would get busted because of his decision to meet up with me today rather than to do what his mom, dad, uncle and lola wanted him to do...to put up rather ...for that day.

He's sick of it.

Im sick of them treating him that way and giving him a hard time.
If only I can do something about it.
I did, i guess, In my own little way. Its not big, but it helped.
It helped the both of us.
It comforted us both.

And for that I am glad.

Maybe im thankful for these obstacles that we face in our lives. It gives us extra reason to WANT to be in each others arms even more.

A little more time.....
A little more patience.....
A little more strength to hold on....
And a lot more of TLC.....

Im here for you .... ALWAYS.

...sigh... =)

Just finished reading the blogs of my girlfriends.
So cute!
All three of us are so in love! hehehe
Aliw man!
Maybe we should triple date again (when was the last time we did that?) and maybe in our small special way do something for them.....Something they would appreciate....
what you think girls?

Today i felt terrible coz of stuff that happened at the office, and having dysmennorhea does not help at all.
Also, I had to accompany Chino in his enrollment today, so naturally, i had significant lack of sleep today. Unfortunately, Chino didnt make it to the payment cutoff for the day coz his assessment ended at around 4:45pm. (Thats the reason I was there... to pay his tuition), so bale wala.
Traffic and the rain didnt help.
I was expecting to be home max 6 pm so i could still catch about an hour of zzzs but we still had to pick up cam at her office in greenhills, im thinking its ok, since i can MAYBE get some sleep in the car, but nooo.... her officemates came with us all the way to the house, guys pa, so, syempre nahiya naman akong humiga diba? so in short, I didnt get sleep at all.

Im just so thankful for Sun Cellular's 24/7.
Schiatzi was with me despite me ranting, complaining, and bitching about the day's happenings.
he was so patient and kept trying to make me smile.
He made it all worthwhile.
Love you schiatzi!
Thank you so so so much!
I am eternally grateful!
mmmmmwah!

wish i may, wish i might

so happy today!
I got to spend my whole morning with my schiatzi.
So happy i finally got to feel his hugs again... so comforting. I totally needed that.
We're so in love, grabe! kinikilig ako! hehehe( parang bata, but heck, thats how we feel!)
I wish its always like today......but its not.

Sometimes i just think that its so unfair that we have to live so far from each other.
Its hard that we can't physically be there for each other sometimes when we need each other the most. But maybe that's how we're growing together. Maybe that's how God is testing our patience. Maybe thru all else, thats how God is leading our relationship and our lives.

So deep there a!

Totally mixed emotions right now.
I mean, im still awed by the fact that this relationship is something so good.
so right.
so real.

Its been a year now and they're not yet done with their thesis. how i wish.... and so do they, that they finally finish and graduate already and get on with their lives. I know how allan wants that so badly that he can taste it..... Im also affected coz I dont like seeing him so burdened, troubled, and distressed. Its been quite some time since i saw him happy.... as in HAPPY HAPPY. for the past months, i've only seen temporary happiness in his eyes.

I wish I can do something about it.
I wish I can help.
But its something THEY have to do and finish on their own.
In the meantime, im just right beside him, doing what i know and what i can do.

Love him more and more.

happy shalalala

a few more hours and i finally get to see my baby again! yahoo! I get to hug my hubby na!
im bored here at the office, no work na kami, so, what im just working on is my blog, friendster and email. Thank god for internet access! hehehehe!

Cla heart are shooting at the park at the back of the office.
Wait till i tell Schiatzi, i bet he's going to be so jealous! hehehe. Mega crush nya kc e. hehehe.
Too bad, Even i dont have a chance to see her. If I did, e di ill take her pic pa. tooo bad schiatzi, I only got to listen to the director direct Heart and Alwin around! Anyways, Next time!

oh ya, during the weekend, i was with my mom and cousin selling stuff at cuenca, we sold frames, contact lenses, pine baskets, solitaire marble board, sarongs, hotpads, coconut virgin oil, cologne, body scrub, and luis' magazines. saw some of my old classmates and friends. It was nice to see them again. Although I was also hoping to see more of the Sakote ppl there, but didnt. Oh well, better Caloy and Jaimee rather that no one at all right? Hopefully Ill see more of them when i join the St. James Bazaar or on Dec 18-19. (friends, mark your calendars, Dec 18-19 is a DEFINITE. Our stall will be at the field on that weekend).

Anthony

I miss you anthony!!!!

PMS

Maybe Im PMS-ing right now.
Maybe nahawa ako sa bad mood ng friend ko at work
EWAN.
Bad trip lang. It kinda ruined my day.

Anywho! Thank God for giving us that special someone to make things a little better.
Thanks schiats for making me smile :)

Recently, work has been.... so so.
It sucks that there's a quota that i can WELL go beyond, but i have to limit it only to a certain number coz the others might get mad at me for finishing the work.
Like its my fault pa that i can do more than them. ano magagawa ko, magaling e.... (hehehe! so boastful there a! ) well, i guess it just depends on the mood.

People People People! gosh! so many kinds of people cross our paths.
la lang... trip trip lang.

Glad im finally driving another car. we finally got rid of the troublesome Carnival.
replaced it with a Venture...... When the heck can i get enough money to get MY OWN car??

Glad we also got rid of the tanga-na-weirdo-pa-barumbado-pa-ewan-ko-na Driver Jun.
What a relief!
Replaced him with a nicer, knows how to maintain cars, better ( as what we have seen so far) driver Adi.

Nice to hear from someone you havent from in what....... 3 yrs?


Labo ba ng blog ko?
Thats the PMS effect..... heheheh

Lately

Wow, Its been a while.
Many times have i wanted to blog..... procrastination got the best of me.

Whats going on with me lately? Im not too sure. Finally got enough rest for the past month. ( as in sleep all day and work all night lang, no gimmicks in between), even enrolled in the gym (and followed my workout of course). But since Tuesday, after half of my medical exam (the next half tom), I got scared coz of my health. I thought i was healthy.... not as a horse, but healthy enough to go on with the day to day activities. Hindi pala.

Just went thru my regularization medical exam last tuesday. Went there on my own, commuted, looked around for the place in U.N. ave in Taft. Got there, waited for my turn, took my weight and height, took my blood, then back the Doctor for the rest of my physical.
She took my blood pressure, then after that, listened to my heartbeat.
She took her time. I started wondering why she's listening to my heart for so long. Weird.
When she finished, she said my heartbeat is too slow. about 50-60 per minute. She says I have to undergo ECG.

So I went. syempre it was my first time. The stuff looked weird. mini suction cups and wires. I thought i was going to be electricuted. hehehe. anyways, when it was all over, the nurse told me my heartbeat wasnt even reaching 40. Scary. She said that people who are aged 60 above had an average heartrate of 50 beats per minute.
What the hell does that mean?

So, Im going back tomorrow to finish my medical exam (i still lacked Urinalysis and drug test coz i had merah) and hopefully they would tell me whats really wrong with me.

Im just hoping its nothing grave.
Please pray for me guys.

Not just my health.... but my life too.....

Im kinda confused about my situation right now.
This song is perfect.
Munkin kami bisa ngerti apa saya mau bilang dengan lagu ini......

Lately

Lately I've had the strangest feeling
With no vivid reason here to find
but yet the thought of losing you's been hanging
Around my mind
Far more frequently you're wearing perfumeA
nd with you say 'No special place to go'
But when I ask, will you be coming back soon
you don't know, never know
I'm a man of many wishes
Hope my premonition misses
But what I really feel
My eyes won't let me hide
Cuz they always start to cry
Cuz this time could mean good, goodbye.
(Oh why don't you tell me)
Lately I've been staring in the mirror
Very slowly picking me apart
Saying I'm trying to tell myself that I have a reason
With your heart
Girl, just the other night while you were sleeping
I vaguely heard you whisper someone's name
But, when I asked you what are the thoughts your keeping
You just said 'Nothing changed'(2x)
I'm a man of many wishes
Hope my premonition misses
But what I really feel
My eyes won't let me hide
Cuz they always start to cry (yeah yeah baby)
Cuz this time could mean good bye, good bye

Girlashes!
 
Kaye! Krissy!
 
Miss ko na kayo~!!!! as in sobra!
la lang... yun lang.\
super miss ko na kayo.
lunch naman tayo one time. misshhyu!

Girlashes!
 
Kaye! Krissy!
 
Miss ko na kayo~!!!! as in sobra!
la lang... yun lang.\
super miss ko na kayo.
lunch naman tayo one time. misshhyu!

My cocktail mix

How to make a Kristine

Ingredients: 5 parts competetiveness 1 part courage 5 parts beauty

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add wisdom to taste! Do not overindulge!

Username:

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com



Thanks to kaye! got this site off her blog... pretty AWESOME!
although im not too sure bout that competitive part, but im hella sure we sistas are DEFINITELY 5 PARTS BEAUTY! hahahah! peasssh

...oih....

whatta stressful day (or night....whatever applies to me).
Bad trip! as in!

CAn i just say....

i mean shout out loud....

ANG BOBO NG "BOSING" NAMIN!!!! GRRRR!

Sa sobrang frustration ko, i actually felt physical pain in my heart.
Natakot tuloy ako- knowing that i have High Cholesterol and stuff and then i suddenly remembered what Lester told me... that Im prone to heart attacks.... yikes! scary! di na ko pwede sobrang ma stressed!

:(

Love is unseen

Love is Unseen: Got this piece thru email from an Indo friend...... Best expressed in Bahasa. :) As in KUROT SA PUSO=============HANEP!!!!

Read on:
>>
>> Kenapa kita menutup mata ketika tidur? Ketika kita menangis?
Ketika kita mengkhayal?
>> Ini karena hal terindah di dunia TIDAK TERLIHAT .
>> Kita semua agak aneh . dan hidup sendiri juga agak aneh .
>> Dan ketika kita menemukan seseorang yang keunikkannya SEJALAN dengan kita .
>> kita bergabung dengannya dan jatuh ke dalam suatu keanehan serupa yang dinamakan CINTA.

>> Ada hal-hal yang tidak ingin kita lepaskan. orang-orang yang tidak ingin kita tinggalkan .
>> Tapi ingatlah. melepaskan BUKAN akhir dunia. melainkan awal suatu kehidupan baru.
>>
>> Kebahagiaan ada untuk mereka yang menangis, mereka yang tersakiti, mereka yang telah mencari. dan mereka yang telah mencoba.
>> Karena MEREKALAH yang bisa menghargai betapa pentingnya orang yang telah menyentuh kehidupan mereka.
>>
>> CINTA yang AGUNG.
>> Adalah ketika kamu menitikkan air mata dan MASIH peduli terhadapnya.
>> Adalah ketika dia tidak mempedulikanmu dan kamu MASIH menunggunya dengan setia.
>> Adalah ketika dia mulai mencintai orang lain dan kamu MASIH bisa tersenyum sambil berkata 'Aku turut bahagia untukmu'.
>>
>> Apabila cinta tidak berhasil. BEBASKAN dirimu. Biarkan hatimu kembali melebarkan sayapnya dan terbang ke alam bebas.
>>
>> Ingatlah. bahwa kamu mungkin menemukan cinta dan kehilangannya, tapi ketika cinta itu mati. kamu TIDAK perlu mati bersamanya..
>>
>> Orang terkuat BUKAN mereka yang selalu menang. MELAINKAN mereka yang tetap tegar ketika mereka jatuh
>>
>> Entah bagaimana. dalam perjalanan kehidupan, kamu belajar tentang dirimu sendiri. dan menyadari. bahwa penyesalan tidak seharusnya ada.
>>HANYALAH penghargaan abadi atas pilihan-pilihan kehidupan yang telah kau buat.
>>
>> TEMAN SEJATI.
>> Mengerti ketika kamu berkata 'Aku lupa.'
>> Menunggu selamanya ketika kamu berkata 'Tunggu sebentar'.
>> Tetap tinggal ketika kamu berkata 'Tinggalkan aku sendiri' Membuka pintu meski kamu BELUM mengetuk dan berkata 'Bolehkah saya masuk?'.
>>
>> MENCINTAI.
>> BUKANLAH bagaimana kamu melupakan.. melainkan bagaimana kamu MEMAAFKAN.
>> BUKANLAH bagaimana kamu mendengarkan. melainkan bagaimana kamu MENGERTI.
>> BUKANLAH apa yang kamu lihat. melainkan apa yang kamu RASAKAN.
>> BUKANLAH bagaimana kamu melepaskan. melainkan bagaimana kamu BERTAHAN.
>>
>> Lebih berbahaya mencucurkan airmata dalam hati daripada menangis tersedu-sedu.
>> Airmata yang keluar dapat dihapus. sementara airmata yang tersembunyi menggoreskan luka yang tidak akan pernah hilang.
>>
>> Dalam urusan cinta, kita SANGAT JARANG menang.. Tapi ketika CINTA itu mencintai seseorang. LEBIH dari kamu mencintai dirimu sendiri.
>>
>> Akan tiba saatnya dimana kamu harus berhenti mencintai seseorang BUKAN karena orang itu berhenti mencintai kita. MELAINKAN karena kita menyadari bahwa orang itu akan lebih berbahagia apabila kita melepaskannya
>>
>> Akan tetapi apabila kamu benar-benar mecintai seseorang, jangan lepaskan dia. jangan percaya bahwa melepaskan SELALU berarti kamu benar-benar mencintai.
>>
>> MELAINKAN. BERJUANGLAH demi cintamu. Itulah CINTA SEJATI.
>>
>> Lebih baik menunggu orang yang kamu inginkan
>> DARIPADA berjalan bersama orang 'yang tersedia'.
>>
>> Lebih baik menunggu orang yang kamu cintai
>> DARIPADA mencintai orang yang berada di sekelilingmu.
>>
>> Lebih baik menunggu orang yang tepat karena hidup ini terlalu singkat untuk dibuang hanya dengan 'seseorang'.
>>
>>

Kadangkala orang yang kamu cintai adalah orang yang PALING menyakiti hatimu.

>>
Dan kadangkala, seseorang yang mendengar tangismu, membawamu ke dalam pelukannya adalah cinta yang tidak kamu sadari.
==========================================================

notice the stressed line...... DAMN THATS HELLA TRUE!!!!
i cant stress that enough! TRUETRUE TRU!!!!!!! can i just shout out TRRUEE!!!!!!!!!!!! Grabe! as in!!!

cguro naman you guys get a drift of the current state im in..... I mean, sigh.... you know what i mean. It can get so stressing.... este frustrating talaga.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

If there's one thing i remember one of my girlfriends telling me about what NOT to talk about in a relationship, "ARGENT" is definitely ONE of them. you guys will end fighting the whole day..... no matter how hard you try to avoid it and patch things up... wala. It will just boil down to that the whole day, whole night... as in! nakaka bad trip!
==========================================================
Here's another thing. kenapa tidak bisa yang saya ke rumah dia kalau saya mau, just because saya sudah mau lihat dengan cowok saya karena sudah lama kami kita tidak bertemu. Kalau dia tidak bisa ke rumah saya, atau kemana aja supaya kami bisa bertemu, berarti saya aja yang kesitu kan?

Cowok bilang saya bisa.... dengan satu condisi: saya harus ada mobil. saya tidak bisa ambil bis atau transportasi public lagi....

Ya, saya ngerti dia mau saya safe lagi, tetapi HALLO!!! saya mengabil bis di kota berapa kali!! hay.... LIfe!!!

kalau saya mau surprisin dia, gemana? waduh!

Now i know how Kaye felt. NAKAKAASAR!
OI; the HIGHLIGHTS of winter! DAmn COLD is what it is!

change of season

When it rains, it pours. - Im talking about the weather outside.... as well as the weather inside....My self that is. I guess the happy summer days are over. Its time for the thunderstorms, showers and cloudy skies again.... The season when the sun only comes out for a very short while. Im sad. But then in a way, im happy that i enjoyed pure bliss during summer. Hot summer days, Happy summer days and Carefree summer days. Wish ko lang that all year round it would be like that. But thats wishful thinking. as in DREAM ON! It wont be real without the rain.

Oh well.... my friend did say something though...." you know whats the best thing about the rain? Its that the sun will be up again. " So true so true!

Promotion

I could hardly believe that I just finished an interview with Shiney, our Vice President. - IT was so short. Hella short.... i really dont know / have no absolute idea if that interview went well or not. Oh well. Ill leave it all to GOd. bahala na! Im just hoping for the best.

==========================================================================

Another point for us women~

Eleven people were hanging on a rope under a helicopter - ten men and one woman. The rope was not strong enough to carry them all, so they decided that one has to drop off.

Otherwise they were all going to fall. They were not able to choose that person, but then the woman made a very touching speech. She said that she would voluntarily let go of the rope, because as a woman, she was used to giving up everything for her husband and kids, and for men in general, without ever getting anything in return. As soon as she finished her speech, all the men started clapping their hands..

SEND THIS STORY TO AN INTELLIGENT WOMAN SO THAT SHE HAS SOMETHING TO SMILE ABOUT TODAY...
=======================================================================


Checked my mail today. I got one from dad, re: my Tickle quiz..... he said he was so disappointed coz that thing was personal and i shouldnt be posting personal stuff about me online. Guess I forgot to take my dad's email add off the list. Hehehe. Oh well, its not biggie.

Well, technically, it wasnt posting anything personal online. It was a pre-set survey that we get to choose what questions to put up. If our answer wasnt in the list, we just add it. Plus the People taking the quiz wouldnt know what the real answers are. They just get to see their scores. Its ME who sees the results- what they chose and how they did.

Surprisingly, so far, the highest farer was my former professor. he got 70%. Well, in fairness, not much people took the quiz, and my closest friends havent taken the quiz.

========================================================================

I just have to say, Today was one of the greatest days i spent with my schiatzi. It just felt so right, just hanging out with him, talking, having fun. Plus we didnt spend on anything.... well, it was very minimal, if ever we did. Im just so in love with him. It just amazes me how love can feel so great. How it can feel so comforting. and the best part is- is that everything is so real. This is the kind of love that I just use to read in books, watch in movies or simply dream of, knowing that such a perfect love couldnt be that possible. Well, Im wrong. Its so damn possible, and i couldnt be any happier. I know we have our ups and dows, but its all part of the deal.

I just cant get over it. .... im so in love! Im so in love with my one and only man. My schiatzi!

=========================================================================

Hehehe! its funny here in the office. When there's no work, or our systems are down, there's only one thing to do

Read email, forward emails, or compose email.

Friends, im sorry if im flooding, but when you're bored and you have access to the internet but cant download stuff, all you can do is just email and blog. Please forgive me. =p

here is a little email i got entitled : As i've matured...

Friends.... HILARIOUS! , and true too!

As I've Matured...
> >
>

>
> I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
> All you can do is
> stalk them and hope they panic and give in...
>
> I've learned that one good turn gets most of the
> blankets.
>
> I've learned that no matter how much I care, some
> people are just
> jackasses.
>
> I've learned that it takes years to build up trust,
> and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy
> it.
>
> I've learned that whatever hits the fan will not be
> evenly distributed.
>
> I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to
> others - they are more screwed up than you think.
>
> I've learned that depression is merely anger without
> enthusiasm.

> I've learned that it is not what you wear; it is how
> you take it off.
>
> I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after
> you think you're finished.
>
> I've learned to not sweat the petty things, and not
> pet the sweaty things. I've learned that ex's are
> like fungus, and keep coming back.I've learned age
> is a very high price to pay for maturity.
>
> I've learned that I don't suffer from insanity, I
> enjoy it.
>
> I've learned that we are responsible for what we do,
> unless we are
> celebrities.
>
> I've learned that artificial intelligence is no
> match for natural
> stupidity.
>
> I've learned that 99% of the time when something
> isn't working in your
> house, one of your kids did it

> I've learned that there is a fine line between
> genius and insanity.
>
> I've learned that the people you care most about in
> life are taken from you too soon and all the less
> important ones just never go away. And the real
> pains in the ass are permanent.
>

Astig no?! I kow Kaye and Kris will agree on this! hehehehehe! Miss you girls!

life right now? ok lang

Went out to vote today. I thought I voted for the right person, but, now with all the tallying going on and seeing that FPJ is really running high on the polls, im regretting who i voted for. Nope I didnt vote for FPJ. Heaven forbid! I voted for someone who i believed in and quiet a number of people believed in too. But i think i wasted my vote coz i really shouldve stuck to my original plan. Vote for the next highest presidentiable contender aside from FPJ. hay..... I just really pray he wont win.

mmmmmmmm feels nice to be back in the circulation. :p anyways, let me review my past two weeks.

highlights :
1. drinking with the sakote peeps and my schiatzi in celebration of Lester's birthday. It has Fun written all over it!
2. having dinner and hanging out with kaye and kris. Missed those kwentos! grabe! when was the last time we did that?
3.Started training for my first 'real' job. My world started to turn around coz of the night shift I have to get used to, but so thankful that i met really great and fun people there as well, so it eases the pain of change.
4. Spending holy week in Jakarta with my dad. I missed those kind of Bisita Iglesias. We dont do that here in the Phil. :c. I missed my dad, and also Jakarta. I wish I stayed there a little longer. Hope i can go back there soon.
5. Seeing my baby again!
6. Being home alone.... as in no one but me. the 1 maid and 1 driver dont count.

Well, its nice to be in front of my own computer again.
Sometimes, its like my only connection to my friends... well, in truth, sometimes it is and it does feel good to see how my friends - old and new... esp the old.. are doing on the other side of the screen.

hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

super mixture of emotions today.
Angst and frustration mostly.
Directed mostly at one focal channel.
Damn.
Argh!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
Heavy, hassle, hate the feeling!
Buisit!

why why why why why????????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
right now, i feel so low, dirty, disrespectful, unclean, and I have never resented something so much in my whole entire life before. It hurts so much. So deep. That definitely tore my heart, my soul and my whole being apart. I never knew Loving someone so much and giving it your all can hurt so so so much. Its like i died, but im still here.... wishing i really just died so that I wouldnt have to hurt so so so much. Is this my karma? I am so lost, confused and full of hate on myself. I cant believe what had just happened. Those words still sting me so much..... WHY???????????? I am so stupid. Im so stupid. Im so stupid. TAnga!!!! putang ina! nakakaloko! sobrang sakit..... I wish I could cry, i wish I could pour out all my frustrations and thoughts, but NO.... I cant ..... I cant face anyone anymore... I cant face him... I am so disgusted with myself. sana talaga mamatay na ako.......marami akong nadaanan, na lagpasan, at nakayanan.... pero putang ina!!!!!!!!!!!! bakit ganito? WHy do i love so much but i cant let go.....

i wish the world would swallow me up whole.... I hate hurting him, and yet I do....No matter how much I try to avoid it, hurting just happens... I just always always ruin it. And it SUCKS!!

Im scared... so scared of losing the only one who i ever loved like this... So scared that its just around the corner. I cant imagine ever losing the only one who made me feel so complete, so loved, and someone so true, someone who inspired me so much, someone who has been and who always will be the keeper of my heart.... It would hurt like HELL. I dont think I could ever bear it. :...(

in a few minutes il be joining my friends to go to Tagaytay.
actually, im at Joe's house, waiting for her to finish packing and taking a bath.

I had a perfect day yesterday with schiatzi. Im going to miss those wonderful hugs. I just feel so protected and safe whenever im in his arms. Sigh...

I wish everything will be ok. Saya pengen yang cowok saya mencintain saya lagi. Saya terlalu bingung dengan semua hal yang jadi. Saya terlalu kesel dengan diriku karena saya yang hal atau yang orang yang berantam dengan dia. Ada lain terjadian yang ngak harus ber berantaman, tetapi, saya bodoh sekali. Saya ngak bisa mengapus yang terjadian. waduh! Adah banyak jaman saya pengen mati. kemarin perfect, tetapi tadi malam tidak. Tadi malam, saya mau mati...... Saya pengen semua hal kembali ke normal..... saya cinta dia selalu! Sakit hati!

happy! shalalala! its so nice to be happy! shalalala

Its one of those few moments that I can say Im happy. Had dinner with my wacko girlfriends last night, and we just had a great time laughing our asses off! Pinag trip pan pa namin yung camera ni Jo, so we had a pictorial session. hahaha! classic! Even if my day with my man was a bit of a roller coaster ride, the girls really know how to make it high. Im just happy me and schiats are ok.

Wawa c joei last night! we had to bring everyone home kc la na ride, we left Ziera's place at 11, and I (the last one to be brought home before joei) got home at 115. Brought Mayan, Apol, Leah, Anna (the farthest -- read--SUSANNA HEIGHTS EXIT IN SSH!!!!!), then Kathy and finally me and Jo. Joei should get her beauty rest! Im also so happy for Joei....girlash! New beginning, new everything. I wish you happiness! You deserve to be HAPPY!!!

just finished the Baccalaureate mass today. Cant believe that it was the last day I wore my uniform. Imagine, all my school life. From prep to college, i have been wearing a uniform. Tomorrow onwards, I have to think of what to wear, pray that i didnt wear it on the same occasion, or that i look good, etc..... hassle! hehehe!

But its a change. Along with it, one of the major changes in life I have to face. Stepping into the REAL world: more work, more responsibilities, more bills to pay, and less monetary support from my parents. ( I worked and had more responsibilities than someone my age would have, but now, i have to triple that responsibility.)

So far, all my job interviews has been great. I just have to take my pick.

3 more sleeps till graduation, I just hope the people who mean so much to me would be there....

EXISTENCE isn’t merely living, it’s TOUCHING someone else’s life;

LIFE isn’t merely breathing, it’s being given FREEDOM to choose

==========================================
here...

This is where I started, this is where it would continue...

A chapter anew opens after graduation....

To a dreamer's life that is full of surprises
Challenges
Obstacles
Happiness
People
Achievements
Milestones
Dreams
Bliss

What else can I feel but to look forward to it
and to continue dreaming....

Just came back from a sleepover in baguio. Fun Fun fun!!!!!!! Met some great people who showed me the true blue nitty gritty Ukay Ukay! Got a really cutesy dress for 30 pesos! would you believe that! Before i met them, I already went to the Ukay at Session road.... got cute skirts for 50 and my grad dress for 100... I thought that was already cheap. Boy was I SOOOOOOO wrong!!! In the new place, i got 4 skirts, 3 cover-ups, 5 Signature blouses, 2 dresses and 1 jump skirt; all for about 300 pesos only! HAH!!!!!! Super Cheap! I went crazy there!!! NOw i know where Im gonna do all my shopping in baguio!! hahahahaha!

My only form of rest and peace after days and days of gruelty, cruelty, dispair and pain. This weekend with my cousin and her girlfriends was a truly a breath of fresh air.

Feels great being able to release grudges with someone who is going through the same obstacles and grudges. Feels superb knowing Im not alone in this world. Its total bliss having my man, my lover, my friend-Schiatzi by my side through all these: he comforts, relieves, listens, puts things in perspective when i am irrational.

My theme song for the weekend and next few days/weeks to come: Rainbow by South Border. .......I want to believe that there is a rainbow after the rain.

ah......... no more classes at last! Whew! I have so much to unload. Especially with thoughts and issues here at home. Depressing, bubble-burster and what nots. I just hate the way i am still treated as a prisoner here at home. Up to my graduation. Shit!

I just hope it doesnt stretch all the way till I work.... Btw, Good news, I have a Job! lucky me its real near the house. Lucky me its not a Call center although its also graveyard shift. Lucky me its in line with my course. Lucky me the authorities allowed me to take a vacation first and yet hired me anyway! Its a AIG-Business Systems Processing, Inc.

Right now, i have deep deep disregards with my mom. To the point of almost hating her! Its not my fault my grades aren't great. Had she been here to do her responsibilities instead of passing them on to me, plus the fact that I had my thesis as well, and all those Kamalasan that happened while she was away.

I need a break from it all right? Away from her, this house, and responsibilities even just for a while... a weekend at the least perhaps. So since my friends and I were planning to go to Puerto Galera right after Grad, being the 'diligent' daughter that I am, I asked her permission of course... lo and behold!! she said no! her reasoning--no boats, no planes, most of all, NO BEACH! fine! I let it pass for a while...... two weeks! Thats probably enough time right? So I asked her again and her answer..... another no! Reason? : With all the kamalasan that has happened, hinay hinay lang! WHATDAFUCK?!! Where was she when it all happened? Yes it was her jewellery, but who else was the aggravated party? MEE!!!!!!!!! Who needs a break??? MEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! who has been helping me the whole time she was gone? syempre wala! ako lang! My beautiful sister wont lift a finger about helping me, so im stuck with everything. Kaya ko kung kaya ko, pero pucha naman, tao lang ako at napupuno rin ako!!!!!!!

I want to disappear from her. Im just hoping that when I come back from Indo, she will decide to live there na. ALong with Cam and Tony. hay nako! Chin I can understand coz he'll still be going to college. I mean, we think the same so, and we get along, so, I think there wont be a problem.

Im just so frustrated at the fact that im damn 21 already, a graduate... well, in a week anyway, and yet I am still trapped like bird in a cage, waiting to fly!... hay life...

Life can truly distress you at times.
Life can be so demanding
Life can be sweet
but nonetheless challenging.
Sometimes your only friend is your tears
Because there are those who just wont listen
Life can be so carefree
But its not ours for the taking.

whew! Its such a relief to pass the thesis paper..... just have to finish the production, then next BIG worries would be the defense. Im just happy we got to pass it alsready.... even tho we passed it late... well, better late than never right?

First day of classes and man! I just cant wait till school finishes already! im sarting to get real lazy studying coz I know that ill be done in a few months... HOPEFULLY!!! hehehe!

I notice a pattern here... i mean with me. In high school, I really slacked off my studies last year knowing that whatever i did, I would pass and get out of school anyways. This year, im slacking off too, and just concentrating on my thesis. ... bad sign! I shouldnt slack off, but my mind just wont get into studying! man!!! I should really push myself! (i am SUCH a procrastinator! Shet!)

Oh well, i have a long exam tom for business policy, and i havent gotten myself to study yet.... instead, im online, waiting for Lizzie Maguire to come on. tsk tsk tsk! Here I am complaining on how lazy i am, telling myself what i should do and yet not doing anything about. Bad bad bad!!! If i could just give myself a whip i would..... bu of course i wouldnt do that! ... ako na yun e! heheheh!

Shet! (I think i say Shet too much! Shet!) kakahawa kc yung mga expressions e! Shet! ay yay yay!!!!!! cge na cge na, il get off and TRY to study.... if not at least right after Lizzie I should! cant afford any more failures! 2 subjects should be enough... Shet!! Need to catch up talaga on Midterms! grrrrrrr!

Oh well.... im just happy! shalalala, its so nice to be happy! shalalala, Everybody should be happy!! ........... Adios! Mmmmmwah!

ok, my dad left this morning for Jakarta, and half the day i spent worrying how my partner and i will be able to finish our thesis on time since the deadline is tom. Went to Greenhills to meet my schiatzi as he needs to borrow the laptop for their thesis as well. His PC crashed. Happy and relieved to see him coz he's definitely a sight for sore eyes... plus its the first time we saw each other ever since Christmas. I missed my schiatzi so much and it didnt matter how long or short we would be together today coz I missed him terribly! I just really needed to see him.

Anyways, now im at my partner's place sleeping over so we could finish our thesis. Well, surprise surprise! She turns out sick. as in she couldnt get out of bed, hasnt eaten or drank the whole day....totally bedridden! therefore im stuck finishing our thesis all by myself..... SO HELP ME GOD!

hmmm.... noticed that i have posted nothing but rants here at blog..... not to worry! hopefully when thesis ends, most of my rants end! hay..... few more hours i hope!.... tooodles

Happy new year!
yup! its the first day of the year, and thank God He sent me an angel yesterday who made my day so much better. Even if I just saw him for a few minutes, it was all worthwhile.... Thats why i Love my Schiatzi so much! Thank you schiatzi!

Friends! happy New Year! hope this year will turn out more fruitful, prosperous and eventful for all of us! Im so thankful that all of you have become a part of my life! mmmmmwah!!!!

Well, I hope to see you all soon.... I also hope we would be able to finish our thesis soon so that no more worries for me and I can finally hang out with my friends again...