ah......... no more classes at last! Whew! I have so much to unload. Especially with thoughts and issues here at home. Depressing, bubble-burster and what nots. I just hate the way i am still treated as a prisoner here at home. Up to my graduation. Shit!

I just hope it doesnt stretch all the way till I work.... Btw, Good news, I have a Job! lucky me its real near the house. Lucky me its not a Call center although its also graveyard shift. Lucky me its in line with my course. Lucky me the authorities allowed me to take a vacation first and yet hired me anyway! Its a AIG-Business Systems Processing, Inc.

Right now, i have deep deep disregards with my mom. To the point of almost hating her! Its not my fault my grades aren't great. Had she been here to do her responsibilities instead of passing them on to me, plus the fact that I had my thesis as well, and all those Kamalasan that happened while she was away.

I need a break from it all right? Away from her, this house, and responsibilities even just for a while... a weekend at the least perhaps. So since my friends and I were planning to go to Puerto Galera right after Grad, being the 'diligent' daughter that I am, I asked her permission of course... lo and behold!! she said no! her reasoning--no boats, no planes, most of all, NO BEACH! fine! I let it pass for a while...... two weeks! Thats probably enough time right? So I asked her again and her answer..... another no! Reason? : With all the kamalasan that has happened, hinay hinay lang! WHATDAFUCK?!! Where was she when it all happened? Yes it was her jewellery, but who else was the aggravated party? MEE!!!!!!!!! Who needs a break??? MEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! who has been helping me the whole time she was gone? syempre wala! ako lang! My beautiful sister wont lift a finger about helping me, so im stuck with everything. Kaya ko kung kaya ko, pero pucha naman, tao lang ako at napupuno rin ako!!!!!!!

I want to disappear from her. Im just hoping that when I come back from Indo, she will decide to live there na. ALong with Cam and Tony. hay nako! Chin I can understand coz he'll still be going to college. I mean, we think the same so, and we get along, so, I think there wont be a problem.

Im just so frustrated at the fact that im damn 21 already, a graduate... well, in a week anyway, and yet I am still trapped like bird in a cage, waiting to fly!... hay life...