wish i may, wish i might

so happy today!
I got to spend my whole morning with my schiatzi.
So happy i finally got to feel his hugs again... so comforting. I totally needed that.
We're so in love, grabe! kinikilig ako! hehehe( parang bata, but heck, thats how we feel!)
I wish its always like today......but its not.

Sometimes i just think that its so unfair that we have to live so far from each other.
Its hard that we can't physically be there for each other sometimes when we need each other the most. But maybe that's how we're growing together. Maybe that's how God is testing our patience. Maybe thru all else, thats how God is leading our relationship and our lives.

So deep there a!

Totally mixed emotions right now.
I mean, im still awed by the fact that this relationship is something so good.
so right.
so real.

Its been a year now and they're not yet done with their thesis. how i wish.... and so do they, that they finally finish and graduate already and get on with their lives. I know how allan wants that so badly that he can taste it..... Im also affected coz I dont like seeing him so burdened, troubled, and distressed. Its been quite some time since i saw him happy.... as in HAPPY HAPPY. for the past months, i've only seen temporary happiness in his eyes.

I wish I can do something about it.
I wish I can help.
But its something THEY have to do and finish on their own.
In the meantime, im just right beside him, doing what i know and what i can do.

Love him more and more.