Merry Christmas!

Its the most wonderful time of the year!

I just realized tho, that Christmas is slowly losing its meaning.
Because of Globilization, they said that it is politically correct to say 'Happy Holidays' instead of 'Merry Christmas'
Why is that?

And they only do this for Christmas! (I may be wrong, but this is only thru my observation)

In any other holidays like Hannukah, St. Patricks Day, etc. It's still greeted the same way.

So why do we compromise 'merry christmas' for 'happy holidays'?

Oh well, its just a thought.

As for me, im sticking to what i know.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

1996 Theme Song

Your 1996 Theme Song Is: 1979 by The Smashing Pumpkins

Shakedown 1979 Cool kids never have the time On a live wire right up off the street You and I should meet

What's Your 1996 Theme Song?

Sige na nga!

Makiki-Wish list na rin ako!

For ME:

1. A Brand New Laptop!
2. All the members of my family to spend Christmas together
3. A Jordi Labanda notebook. (size: 25 springs)
4. Moolah... hehheheheh
5. Lifetime membership in Celebrity Fitness. Hehehhehe!!
6. MAC, Stila makeup
7. Visit us here in Indo ... hehehehhe!
8. The usual clothes, shoes, bags ( sana yung WEARABLE ha... not them Tacky ones)
9. Time to be with my friends just sit, talk and have fun laughing.


For BEA:

1. The CD player for Babies
2. Milk & Diapers
3. Shoes
4. Money :) ( at least we don't have to worry about the Excess baggage when we bring it back here! )
5. Educational/ Musical toys that light up.
6. Drums!
7. Money for her milk, diapers, clothes, shoes, etc.

Whatever.... then again, its the thought that counts right? I mean, you
would want to give the person you are giving the gift to to Like and
Use what you gave them diba? At least you know they wont fling it at
the back of their closet.

So there. That's pretty much my list. :)

just when i attempt to get closer to them.... they push away..
just when i thought that everything would be ok... then the wrong words are said.
just when i thought it would be ok for them to hear me out... they dont listen. They dont hear.

discouraged, distraught, pushed away and hopeless.

BAH! :( PBBBBBBBBBBHHHHHHTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

High Maintenance Relationships

I came across Jayme's site (which i barely do, but today, i just had this instict to read her blog) Anyways, here's what i read that hit me straight to my heart.

And I quote:
"Not because of me. Not because of him. More of because of us. How we deal with each other. How we manage our own expectations. Letting go is oh so hard and yet oh so sweet. I just have to stop being a frightened dog to become one uptight control freak.

Things on my mind after our SMARTS class. Our prof discussed the tao of relationships. She had this very arresting slide with a single phrase -- High Maintenance Relationships.

Then she went and asked: Anyone in a high maintenance relationship? The slides progressed to reveal the symptoms of this so called high maintenance relationships. I found myself agreeing to some points. Just when you thought it would be an endless list, the last slide popped up. It outlined very clearly what's up with high maintenance relationships. It's not about you or me. It's about our relationship. It's not about the other person changing. It is about you changing, adjusting to the other person. Mutual change?

I found myself nodding in agreement. Like it or not, relationships are give and take. It's not about one single person fixing what needs to be fixed but rather both parties do the fixing together. Else how can one fix his or her own roof and then proceed to the "our" roof?

I breathed. I let go. And I'm happier for it. I think he is too. He let go of some things and breathed. We're both happier for it. These days I'm just really really happy to be with him. It seems as if we understand each other in some ways as well as discovering that each is still a mystery. A healthy balance, I'd say."

Is this whats happening with Allan and I? Do we have a high maintenance relationship? I mean, i haven't seen the slide or heard of this type of relationship before, but, i have a funny feeling this type of relationship describes us well.

I wish there's a way for me to read more about this High Maintenance Relationship thing. Maybe it would put us into better perspective.
I guess i just want understand this relationship i have. I believe its worth saving.

Quote of the Day

My office mate and I were chatting with our other officemates. We were all talking about a specific topic. One of our friends mentions something we didnt quite understand ( I was thinking maybe it was the language barrier or something). Apparently, I wasnt the only one. When i asked Nana what our friend meant, she said this...

Diana Virsa Umbas: n men said we women r
hard to understand

Diana Virsa Umbas: we cant understand them
either!

Canned Heat

Some things are better left unsaid.... Others are better said thru song.

Here's mine. Canned Heat by Jamiroquia.

You know this boogie is for real.
I used to buy my faith in worship,
But then my chance to Heaven slipped.
I used to worry about the future
But then I throw my caution to the wind.
I had no reason to be care free
No no no, until I took a trip to the other side of
town
Yeah yeah yeah, you know I heard that boogie
rhythm
Hey- I had no choice but to get down down down
down.

CHORUS

Dance, nothing left for me to do but dance,
Off these bad times I'm going through just dance
Got canned heat in my heals tonight baby

I feel the thunder see the lightning
I know this anger's heaven sent.
So I've got to hang out all my hang-ups
Because of the boogie I feel so hell bent
It's just an instant gut reaction, that I got
I know I never ever felt like this before,
I dont know what to do
But then thats nothing new,
Stuck between hell and high water
I need a cure to make it through.

Hey- dancing nothing left for me to do but dance
Off these bad times I'm going through just
dance,
Hey got canned heat in my heals tonight baby
You know know know I'm gonna dance yeah
Off all the nasty things that people say.

Gonna dance, gonna dance my blues away
tonight
Dance, come on got canned heat in my heals
tonight
Canned heat in my heals tonight.

I crave for the times when things were so much easier.
I look at my baby, and i cant help but think- wow. She's so lucky. She's so happy, so carefree...no problems....well, i think the only problem she has in this world is how to communicate to the others how she feels. (to speak, i guess)

But even if she cant talk the talk, she still manages to communicate to us what she wants and what she needs.

Amazing.

I have always been fascinated with kids, and now that i have BEA, my very own, the experience with kids are even more Enriching.

i believe that when God gave me Bea, HE gave me another CHANCE at life....

which leads me to my next question:
If I do the next step... would it be more pleasing to God?

So my mind has been full of deep thoughts lately.
ummm... not so lately, more like since July....
And its already... October. Sigh. Time passes like a speeding bullet.
And yet most of my thoughts stay the same.

Only this time, Im back home.
Home in Jakarta. Oh how great it is to be back home, back with the family.

Well, life's like that.
too much stuff running thru my mind... So much that i cant even put them all down to words.

Sigh...

yep... its been a while since i blogged.

Got the previous personality chuva from a friend's link...

cAn i just say... BRING ME BACK TO NORWAY!!!

i fell in love with the place, and i would LOVE to go back there. much more LIVE there!

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My life right now.. is headed a new chapter.
I hope i can hang on with what im going thru and what i will be going through ( in terms of Love life )

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Bea is sooooooooo kulit! so funny pa! hehehe... Id post pics, but they havent been sent to me... hay. kainis.

Its such a stress buster going home to my daughter with that kulit smile and tabachuy pata of hers. hehehehe.

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oo nga, may friend ako na inlove at in like... kamusta naman yun ha?

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Touched ako sainyo friends in CVG! im happy to have been part of your world... gulat ako sa ginawa nyo for me. Im so touched. Thanks! at least may tatak na ko dyan as teyts. hehehehhe Naku! mamimiss ko kayo!
Till we meet again!! malay nyo! mag apply kayo dito sa work ko ngayon, and we'll see each other again diba?
APPLY NA KC KASO!!! BS SUCKS!!! bwahahahahahah

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Team Pao!! i mishu na! iba talaga dito, pero, fulfilling!
email email! trillian trillian!! chat chat! text text!
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Your personality type is SCUAI

You are social, calm, moderately unstructured, accommodating, and moderately intellectual, and may prefer a city which matches those traits. SCUAI life of the party, not bothered by disorder, not afraid of doing the wrong thing, often late, level emotions, not afraid to draw attention to self, worry free, people loving, prefers unpredictable to organized, fearless, not apprehensive about new encounters, likes philosophical discussions, disorganized, not easily annoyed, not a perfectionist, enjoys danger, comfortable in unfamiliar situations, anxiety free, always joking, not very private, very curious, not embarrassed easily, adventurous, flexible, narcissistic, trusting, easy to get to know, easy to satisfy, likes crowds, ready to act on the spot, not a bad loser, outgoing, thrill seeker, not easily discouraged, optimistic, laid back, open to new experience, slow to judge others, thinks fun is the most important think in life, socially skilled, easily talked into doing silly things, rarely prepared, willing to take risks, adjusts easily, passionate about causes, willing to explain things twice, spontaneous, relaxed, believes in universal harmony, eager to soothe hurt feelings

The largest representation of your personality type can be found in the these U.S. cities: Providence, Austin, Denver, Salt Lake City, Charlotte, San Antonio, Albuquerque/Santa Fe, Indianapolis, Phoenix, Portland/Salem, Nashville, Louisville and these international countries/regions Turkey, Croatia, Slovenia, Caribbean, Puerto Rico, Iceland, Norway, Ukraine, Sweden, Denmark, Spain, Netherlands, Russia, Japan, India

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kamusta naman!

so, yes, it has been a while.... too long in fact.
Thank god for proxy servers - if not for those, i would have gone insane here at my new job.

I cant help but compare my new job to my old job.
This is all i can say.... the people at my old job were the best!
they made me feel so at home when i first came in - into the company and into my new dept, etc. Basta, da best kayo!!!

here at my new job.... its so... soo.... ewan. you try to get close to them, but they're the ones who push you away... or they dont push you away... they just make sure that there's a limit.... gets? kamusta naman yon diva? hay. If it weren't for my cutie baby, i wouldnt be here right now.

post nga ko ng pics ng pinakamagandang baby sa buong mundo... (hehehe Proud mommy e... e ano ngayon? cute talaga anak ko. hahahahaha ... pasensyahan nyo na.... minsan lang... heheheh)






o... what you think? Nagmana yata sakin e. hahahahaha!!! buti nalang! hehehehe :))