how i wish the earth would swallow me up.
how i wish i could just disappear so that no one will ever worry about me again, and i wont have to give them headaches.
i thought i cried all my tears out, but till now, why are they still streaming down my face?
I feel so distraught.
ayoko na mangdamay.
ayoko na masaktan ko yung mga mahal ko sa buhay.
ayoko na.
God please just take me.

thanksgiving

Yup, its thanksgiving.
But i only have a ballpark idea on what its all about coz we dont celebrate it.
All i know is that its the time that we gather, give thanks about the past year, and eat turkey.
The impact of thanksgiving to americans (holiday wise) is like xmas to us Filipinos, idul fitri to muslims and diwali to indians.

If I were to ask what i am thankful for, it would be that i am thankful i am blessed with a wonderful family, a loving schiatzi, wonderful friends and a job to help support my family.

I am also ever so thankful that im still here standing.
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So happy!
Got an award today at the office.
My efforts and hard work are finally noticed.
Plus, sweldo pa today, and 13th month pay.
happy happy joy joy!
I can finally get the K700i!
whoooeeeee!
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ho hum

So many people are joining na!
Esp at http://bashingday.blogspot.com
Welcome welcome!
Finally a portal where we can all rant about our "beloved".

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So sad.
News was broken to the newbies that four had to crosstrain to other teams.
So sad that it had to be the ones that I am beginning to be close with.
Harp, Ella, Cj and Gboi.
My heart goes out to the four of you.
Dont fret, you're in good hands.
You guys were chosen coz you guys are the cream of the crop.
At least we're still in the same profit center (NBLC LBG)
We're still in the same family.
We're always here for you guys.

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girlalus! (kris and kaye)
syempre allan and i are on a limb about the new category of the secret santas.
Esp Allan. I mean, how will he KNOW what to give___? Gets nyo?

anak ng tokwa!
na multiple agent number pa ako! additional appointment pa! 50 numbers! whhhhhaaaaaaaaapak!

.oi.

how lousy this day can it get?
i didnt have enough time to eat dinner,
the temp here in the office is freezing my cute patootie off.
My brain cells are not functioning properly....its on LAG mode.
The files im getting are whacked out and
Therefore my production is really low.

To top it all off,
someone is trying to be funny when he's not.
GRRRR!

MONDAY BLUES!!

ripple

blogs can be really astig... esp with those comments.
They make u want to write more coz you have people sharing your sentiments.

My girls kaye and kris got me into this
i got some people to read my blog and they got their own accounts too
for sure, more people will get influenced and so on....

Ripple effect.
pretty awesome!
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honestly, its only recently that i really got active in this blog.
All because of no work. I finally have enough time to put into writing (or typing) my thoughts.

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I just read Harp's blog.
so much anger there!....... but i guess we all have anger when it comes to THAT.

maj

Bwisit!
wala bang isang araw na hindi mo kami tatantanan sa panunuri mo sa sobrang liit na mga bagay?
Langya!
Sana yung mga butas na hinahanap mo ay mas malaki!
bwiset ka talaga sa mga buhay namin!
GRRRRRR!!!!
nakakagigil sa inis!!

they better get things ryt next time!

Southborder sang Itsumo???!!!
Hell no!!
but I was surfing for some South border lyrics and this came out:


Itsumo
by South Border

Album
:

Juz' call me first born, you're my first love,
You're my 1st kiss from up above.
And I don't care if you don't give love back
Coz' n my heart is where your ass is at.
I love your eyes , your nose & your tender lips,
Wanna kiss your neck, your shoulders to your finger tips.
I go crazy when you shake those sexy hips.
Baby girl you're the 1 I can't resist.
You know I love you from the very start,
I don't care if you break my heart.
I'm the man & I'm here for you, believe me coz' my love is true.

[CHORUS][Sashi]
Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara

[K9]You wanna get down with k-n-i-n-e,
make sure that's pure l-o-v-e
Never talk about the i-c-e coz'
I only got my h-e-a-r-t for y-o-u
I can't pay the bills for dinner,
I juz' give them my IOU
For sure, I'm not after f-u-c-k,
got no b-a-d intentions don't wanna play girl,
Maybe we might spot a UFO, wait, that's not part of the rhyme juz' felt like sayin' so
You gotta know that I love from the start till f-o-r-e-v-e-r.

[CHORUS][Sashi]
Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara

[Dice]Baby girl be my first lady,
be the mom of my first baby
You didn't like me when you first show me,
I'll be gentle I'll do it slowly.

[K9]Girl, I think it's better if you was with me,
I got doe coz' I juz' won the spelling bee
For you, I got all the t-i-m-e
Ask mommies to pass but
I'm not so sure Juz' doin' my on thing,
shits more expensive than your fancy gold rings,
I don't mean dissin' coz' I gots to go there, mommies don't care,
All for them ladies, even chicks with nose rings.

[CHORUS][Sashi]Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara

[CHORUS][Sashi]Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara



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Like I said, They better get things right next time.
What a disgrace for South Border!

training

So, nagsarili ka na.
Feeling mo ba naiintindihan ka ng mga tinuturuan mo?
So, nagmamarunong ka nanaman.
hay nako!
Ang init talaga ng dugo namin sayo.
Pasalamat ka malakas sa sa mga Authorities, kc kung hindi, matagal ka nang bagsak!
Bwiset!

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inggit....

Jealous me!!!!

Miss ko na Sakote!!!

GRRR night jobs!!!!

wahhh!!!!

...hay....

SUCKS

TO

BE

MEE!!!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!


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Kris.....teka teka.... confused na ako ha!
gets mo ko?
Gotta talk na talaga!!
Lets meet up next week girls!!!
PLS PLS PLS?????
I dont have work on the 25th till the 28th!

partners

I spent my whole day with my schatzi.
We ate lunch, watched a movie, strolled around malls to window shop, talked about stuff, hugged each other, then brought me to work.
We feel recharged.

Although the weekend was a rollercoaster of petty fights, misunderstandings, sickness and make ups, it all boils down to this.

There's nothing like taking refuge in the comfort of being physically present when you are in need of that certain love and comfort that only your partner can give.

I guess thats what happened today.

I didnt care that I didnt get sleep the whole day today just so I can be there for him and him for me.

He didnt care that he wasn't feeling well and that his ass would get busted because of his decision to meet up with me today rather than to do what his mom, dad, uncle and lola wanted him to do...to put up rather ...for that day.

He's sick of it.

Im sick of them treating him that way and giving him a hard time.
If only I can do something about it.
I did, i guess, In my own little way. Its not big, but it helped.
It helped the both of us.
It comforted us both.

And for that I am glad.

Maybe im thankful for these obstacles that we face in our lives. It gives us extra reason to WANT to be in each others arms even more.

A little more time.....
A little more patience.....
A little more strength to hold on....
And a lot more of TLC.....

Im here for you .... ALWAYS.

...sigh... =)

Just finished reading the blogs of my girlfriends.
So cute!
All three of us are so in love! hehehe
Aliw man!
Maybe we should triple date again (when was the last time we did that?) and maybe in our small special way do something for them.....Something they would appreciate....
what you think girls?

Today i felt terrible coz of stuff that happened at the office, and having dysmennorhea does not help at all.
Also, I had to accompany Chino in his enrollment today, so naturally, i had significant lack of sleep today. Unfortunately, Chino didnt make it to the payment cutoff for the day coz his assessment ended at around 4:45pm. (Thats the reason I was there... to pay his tuition), so bale wala.
Traffic and the rain didnt help.
I was expecting to be home max 6 pm so i could still catch about an hour of zzzs but we still had to pick up cam at her office in greenhills, im thinking its ok, since i can MAYBE get some sleep in the car, but nooo.... her officemates came with us all the way to the house, guys pa, so, syempre nahiya naman akong humiga diba? so in short, I didnt get sleep at all.

Im just so thankful for Sun Cellular's 24/7.
Schiatzi was with me despite me ranting, complaining, and bitching about the day's happenings.
he was so patient and kept trying to make me smile.
He made it all worthwhile.
Love you schiatzi!
Thank you so so so much!
I am eternally grateful!
mmmmmwah!

wish i may, wish i might

so happy today!
I got to spend my whole morning with my schiatzi.
So happy i finally got to feel his hugs again... so comforting. I totally needed that.
We're so in love, grabe! kinikilig ako! hehehe( parang bata, but heck, thats how we feel!)
I wish its always like today......but its not.

Sometimes i just think that its so unfair that we have to live so far from each other.
Its hard that we can't physically be there for each other sometimes when we need each other the most. But maybe that's how we're growing together. Maybe that's how God is testing our patience. Maybe thru all else, thats how God is leading our relationship and our lives.

So deep there a!

Totally mixed emotions right now.
I mean, im still awed by the fact that this relationship is something so good.
so right.
so real.

Its been a year now and they're not yet done with their thesis. how i wish.... and so do they, that they finally finish and graduate already and get on with their lives. I know how allan wants that so badly that he can taste it..... Im also affected coz I dont like seeing him so burdened, troubled, and distressed. Its been quite some time since i saw him happy.... as in HAPPY HAPPY. for the past months, i've only seen temporary happiness in his eyes.

I wish I can do something about it.
I wish I can help.
But its something THEY have to do and finish on their own.
In the meantime, im just right beside him, doing what i know and what i can do.

Love him more and more.

happy shalalala

a few more hours and i finally get to see my baby again! yahoo! I get to hug my hubby na!
im bored here at the office, no work na kami, so, what im just working on is my blog, friendster and email. Thank god for internet access! hehehehe!

Cla heart are shooting at the park at the back of the office.
Wait till i tell Schiatzi, i bet he's going to be so jealous! hehehe. Mega crush nya kc e. hehehe.
Too bad, Even i dont have a chance to see her. If I did, e di ill take her pic pa. tooo bad schiatzi, I only got to listen to the director direct Heart and Alwin around! Anyways, Next time!

oh ya, during the weekend, i was with my mom and cousin selling stuff at cuenca, we sold frames, contact lenses, pine baskets, solitaire marble board, sarongs, hotpads, coconut virgin oil, cologne, body scrub, and luis' magazines. saw some of my old classmates and friends. It was nice to see them again. Although I was also hoping to see more of the Sakote ppl there, but didnt. Oh well, better Caloy and Jaimee rather that no one at all right? Hopefully Ill see more of them when i join the St. James Bazaar or on Dec 18-19. (friends, mark your calendars, Dec 18-19 is a DEFINITE. Our stall will be at the field on that weekend).

Anthony

I miss you anthony!!!!

PMS

Maybe Im PMS-ing right now.
Maybe nahawa ako sa bad mood ng friend ko at work
EWAN.
Bad trip lang. It kinda ruined my day.

Anywho! Thank God for giving us that special someone to make things a little better.
Thanks schiats for making me smile :)

Recently, work has been.... so so.
It sucks that there's a quota that i can WELL go beyond, but i have to limit it only to a certain number coz the others might get mad at me for finishing the work.
Like its my fault pa that i can do more than them. ano magagawa ko, magaling e.... (hehehe! so boastful there a! ) well, i guess it just depends on the mood.

People People People! gosh! so many kinds of people cross our paths.
la lang... trip trip lang.

Glad im finally driving another car. we finally got rid of the troublesome Carnival.
replaced it with a Venture...... When the heck can i get enough money to get MY OWN car??

Glad we also got rid of the tanga-na-weirdo-pa-barumbado-pa-ewan-ko-na Driver Jun.
What a relief!
Replaced him with a nicer, knows how to maintain cars, better ( as what we have seen so far) driver Adi.

Nice to hear from someone you havent from in what....... 3 yrs?


Labo ba ng blog ko?
Thats the PMS effect..... heheheh